ANSWER!!!!!! NEED LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

Ok. I was never popular gained loads of weight in school so of course never got a gf. I'm 19 now and all i want to do is hold a girl or kiss her. I am 19 I've never done that. I've never been the best dressed and could never talk to a girl properly, I feel intimidated by girls. All I know is that they always want something else. It was never, and it never is, me that they wanted to make out with in the corridor in school or never me they want to meet up with after school to make out or cuddle. I swear they just think I'm a leper or something. I also have a small s, great! and so possibly ends the last thing I thought was normal about me (5 inches cannot be average) I'm so down over this and I think maybe this year I'll get one, maybe if I cut my hair like this maybe, maybe if I wear this maybe, BUT NEVER!!! What do they want?